Uncensored

my mom just washed my blanket and so now it’s all super warm after it came from the dryer

:’)

skipped my first class today
cross that off my bucketlist

I feel really empty nowadays because you’re too busy dealing with your own problems that I don’t want to give you mine.

and you… I don’t really know what to say to you. I just don’t want to talk to you…you know I love you but you know I don’t believe you anymore when you tell me you love me.

and the only thing left is me and a bunch of people you listen to stories of you.

my heart just says never call me again at night. never comfort me again. never give me company when I feel lonely. never tell me that I’m worth more. never tell me that you love me. never tell me you’d do anything for me. never tell me you’d be there for me.

because I don’t deserve a friend that late at night. I should be fed to the darkness. I am worthless. I shouldn’t be loved. I know I’m not. let me beg for your attention but don’t give in. because I knew it was a mistake. I knew it was my fault so leave me to die.

it’s hard to see you as someone I loved and care for after you threw me away so easily.

mewtoot:

i think the saddest people always try their hardest to make people happy

because they know what it’s like to feel absolutely worthless

and they don’t want anybody else to feel like that

(via lalalillaay)

By my responses, you could tell how distant I was acting. 

I’m sorry about that. 

I really needed to hear that from you because I’ve been feeling terrible, wanting to be your friend, like I was desperate. 

can you imagine if someone sent you a list of all the reasons why they love you.

my ex boyfriend did this for me when we were together. a whole list of them.  now it sits in the back of my closet in a bag with all the other stuff he’s given me collecting dust, or whatever. it breaks your heart.

(via mynameisgermaine)

I’m half between I don’t want to be friends anymore and please love me because I miss you so much. I miss how you used to get so excited about seeing me and sometimes you’d even go out of your way to talk to me. and now, you just wave. phone conversations go from an hour to ten minutes. you cancel on our hangout dates. you make plans with other people. I probably haven’t seen you for 4-6 weeks. I feel so fucking clingy because you aren’t the same way I am. you just go on with it and you don’t feel the distancing like I do. I’ve gotten mad at you two to three times in the last two weeks and I’ve never gotten mad at you before. I don’t want to cause you trouble and I hate myself for all that I’m doing. sometimes I feel like I shouldn’t belong in your life to make it easier for you. I just feel like a burden.